Useless

I am feeling down again,
Its Christmas,
I feel useless I couldn't do anything but be upset.
 (in this supposed to be joyful day)

Starting to feel useless,
questioning my own self-worth.
My self-esteem issues are back,
I am starting to question myself again.

It only took two,
just two person to praise my one of my closet friend that she is pretty and smart ,
and I feel shitty about myself ,
I feel useless,
I feel ugly.

I have a lot of due date on hand ,
but I feel so hopeless .

Why am I crying when I am going out later .


Jolin 2017.
Feeling helpess .