Why can't we be like that

 But we know this, we got a love that is homeless                            

   Why can't you hold me in the street?

Why can't I kiss you on the dance floor?

I wish that it could be like that

Why can't we be like that? 'Cause I'm yours

(secret love song by little mix )

After listening this in the radio ,

the lyrics was playing in  my brain the whole day ,

I have been thinking about him for the whole day.

Thinking of what could have change ,

If only I didn't choose to go America ,

If only I didn't take him so seriously ,

If only I didn't spent almost 2 years waiting ,

If only he wasn't the only person I have ever loved .

If only he have not move on ,

If only I have move on .

Life without him is hard ,

Life without motivation .

Our future is so far apart now ,

We probably wouldn't met each other again in future.

It's not that I don't want to move on ,

It's just that I don't know how to move on.

It not that there is no better looking guy or richer guy or taller guys around me 

its just that i dont feel the same at all

like when I look into his eyes 

Everything is just so confusing and complicated right now .