2015

忘记了拥抱 忘记了拥抱 忘记了微笑
忘记我们曾经是那么那么样的好
-A-Lin《忘記擁抱 Forget Love》

hi guys ,i dont know why i am really tired of faking my life is good or stuff .2015 is really not a very year for me :/ by typing this i want to admit that i am crying while typing this .I just got too much too much off things on my brain and lots of  things just didnt really go on the way i want them to,the feeling is just like not achiveing a single thing for the whole year .I know i had had things done ,i had learn a lot but a lot of things, a lot of life goals just didn't happen the way i want them to.Maybe in future ,this is all good .But for now it is not really not,I am not okay,I tried really hard for everything but things just didnt went well.I am lost ,I dont really know what i want anymore ,i used to be a girl that full of dreams bt nowＩjust feel tired and lifeless everyday ,I really cannot get used to my life right now. I am completely lost right now,I dont know what i should do right now ,i dont know how to react anymore .I hope that i could find myself in future ,I could be okay again .

Sometimes, I really hate myself for looking good things and positive site of everything :( I am really very dissapointed wwith myseelf why i couldnt see what good thing have happen this few months but i can only see all thse bad thingss that happen.

Maybe someday ,things will really be good again but for now i will only concentrate on studying i guesss :/ Its like the thing that i really need to improve.

ps : I really feel vey sorry for those people who really treated me well for the past few months .But trust me i alrd tried my best really .

-jolin-